Growing with Type 1 Diabetes

Managing Type 1 Diabetes, can be a very lonely existence. Especially when you are managing it for your child. Without being engrossed in the care that is required, it is easy to watch the care being given with judgmental eyes.

People ask me all the time when Carter will grow out of Type 1 Diabetes. When I tell them he won’t they ask me when it will all get easier. The answer to this question, again is it won’t.

It’s difficult to wrap one’s head around the effort that is poured into managing a Type 1 Diabetic, it’s impossible to bring to light all of the variables in one conversation.The majority of the time, days are OK, and manageable. But there are those days where everything changes on a dime and care becomes almost impossible. An uphill battle that feels like you are climbing up the side of a glacier, barefoot.

We are rapidly approaching the time when Carter starts kindergarten. I will have to relinquish control of his care to the team at his school and I am extremely nervous. I am face to face with a mountain that I am not ready to climb. Allowing someone to care for my son, and having the trust in them to make the right decisions, in a moments notice is daunting.

Type 1 Diabetes is not a play by the book disease. It is an illness that changes minute by minute, based on many factors: activity, insulin on-board, excitement, fear, basal rates, growth, being nervous, food, or lack thereof, and the list goes on and on.

This is a milestone that we need to get through, a hurdle that must be traversed, but my heart isn’t ready. Beyond the exhaustion associated with Carter’s care which spans twenty-four hours a day, every day, the preparation for Carter’s entrance to school has me stressed.

I have faith that my son will be adequately cared for, with proper training, I will relinquish control and allow my son to take more accountability for his health.  It is amazing, as I am reminded yet again, how Type 1 Diabetes changes every aspect of life.  One hurdle at a time, that is what is required when managing Type 1 Diabetes.

2 thoughts on “Growing with Type 1 Diabetes”

  1. My son (diagnosed right before his 2nd birthday) will also be starting kindergarten this fall and I’m so nervous! It’s nice to read your words and know I’m not alone in sending a T1 kindergartener to school.

    1. Hi Reba,
      I always thought nothing would be harder than diagnosis. Then school begins and I feel crippled with fear of the unknown. But at the end of the day, we are warriors just like our kiddos and I know we will find our groove. It IS so nice to know we are not alone with these thoughts we have as Type 1 Moms. Sending so many hugs to you. <3

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