Carter: Mom, I want to take my site off.
Me: Why Buddy?
Carter: Because I don’t want people to laugh at me
Me: Who would laugh at you?
Me: Why do you think they would laugh at your pump?
Carter: Because it makes me different.
Me: You earned that pump, it’s what keeps you healthy. If anyone laughs, or tries to make you feel “different”, you tell them it’s your bravery patch that you wear. Tell them that they wouldn’t think getting poked with a needle for every meal would be that funny if they had to do it. Buddy, your pump does make you different, it shows how brave you are, how conscious of your health you are, and have to be, and it’s the best tool we have to keep you healthy.
Carter: OK mom.
Me: I love you buddy…..
Carter: I love you Mom.
I cried, I went downstairs and cried for about 15 minutes.
The best part of this conversation, was that my six-year-old heard it and came in to Carter’s room to reassure him of his bravery. She also told him that she would always protect him and wouldn’t let anyone laugh at him. I have watched Ashleigh protect her brother, when at birthday parties, or even at the park, she has fiercely defended her brother, and I know I can count on her to protect her brother’s spirit and feelings.
I hate that my son feels different, but am so happy that I gave birth to a fierce warrior who will assist me in protecting my brave son, and will make sure that he is not misunderstood.
This is exactly why I let Carter put a site on my arm, I don’t ever want him to feel alone.