Sometimes when you are in the middle of a struggle it can be hard to remember that others have gone through, and most likely are going through the same struggle. Knowing you are not alone can make all the difference in the way you feel.
Things have been hard lately with Carter’s numbers, massive highs followed by a crazy low. It feels as though there isn’t anyway to guarantee that I will ever have the right solution. When dealing with Type 1 Diabetes, it’s hard to remember I am a human being who needs enough sleep and all of the other necessities for survival. I can’t tell you how many days it will be 3PM before I have eaten anything. Taking care of both of my kids is very time-consuming, then add-on the diabetes management and I am surprised I am able to do anything for myself.
Some days it can be hard to not feel resentful, not toward my children, but toward diabetes. There are many days I get frustrated at this regime we have had to add into our daily lives. Exhaustion exacerbates these feelings, and when I feel completely alone I will happen upon a blog, or a post within a group I am a part of and realize I am not the only one experiencing these feelings.
Even though it doesn’t change the circumstances, it is nice to listen to other ways people have found a solution, and just by realizing I’m not alone makes me realize that the frustration I am feeling is normal. It can be very difficult to be so exhausted and still have to function, especially when “to function” means keeping a person alive. I do the best I can to manage Carter’s diabetes, and there are days that are easier than others. Being able to reach out to a community that understands and be able to say, this sucks, and be greeted with an understanding, helps me to make it through many days!
Remember to always reach out, when you feel frustrated or exasperated, there are many people who are going through the same thing and are able to relate. Receiving encouragement in the midst of the storm, helps me realize this too shall pass.