Diabetes Burnout

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Carter at the park – September 2013

I had heard about diabetes burnout, but didn’t understand what it all meant, until now.  Being responsible for a young child is hard enough, especially when they are under the age of two and when you have a four-year-old as well.  Then tack on Juvenile Diabetes to the under two-year-old and diabetic burnout becomes a real issue, quick.  It’s only been about two and a half months since my son’s diagnosis, and recently we went to a new endocrinologist and switched up the way we administer insulin.  We eliminated the intermediate insulin (NPH) and now we have an extra shot to give at lunch time.  Due to my son recently being sick with the flu, his blood sugar readings had been really high for the past two weeks so there were days when he was receiving four shots, as well as six to eight finger pricks to monitor his blood sugar levels.  All of the extra shots, and blood checks, and the fact that he was sick and now is teething, really led me quickly to feeling burned out.  There are the typical days every once in a while that I feel exasperated at what I now am faced with every morning when I wake up.  Most times I shake it off and proceed to the kitchen and get things set up to start my sons day with his first insulin shot before breakfast; lately, I have found myself feeling extremely burned out on the whole process.  It’s an interesting dilemma, being so fed up with something that you can’t get away from.  There is nothing I can do but face this thing that I hate every day, multiple times through out the day.  Don’t get me wrong, my son is worth it, it’s just lately I am tired of it.  There have been more tears as of late, it reminds me of that movie Tangled (one of my daughters favorites) where Rapunzel leaves the tower and goes through every emotion in the span of ten minutes.  I feel like that daily, multiple times throughout the day.  Burnout is real as a parent anyway, but when you add special needs onto your child, it makes the burnout more frequent, and deeper.  So at the end of the day, I chug through and allow myself the moments when I cry in order to alleviate the burn out feeling as best I can, but I also allow myself to feel burned out and not make excuses for hating the new tasks that plague my day.  Having a child with Juvenile Diabetes sucks, and it grieves you every minute of everyday.  I believe learning ways to cope through it will not only make me a better mom and caretaker, but it will allow me the ability to assist my son through his diabetic burnouts once he is older and managing this on his own.  We are all in this together, and my love for my children enables me to dig deeper then I ever thought possible, especially when faced with a demon like Juvenile Diabetes.

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